Thursday, February 21, 2013

Makeovers

 I've always been interested in transformations--when I was a teenaged girl, I loved any movie with a makeover at its core: Love Potion #9, Can't Buy Me Love, yes, Pretty Woman. Fast forward to my twenties and see me glued to the TV any time I stayed in a hotel with good cable, watching reno shows on HGTV. And you know I love to find some ragged, tarnished, hard-loved and long-forgotten object at the thrift shop or on the side of the road and bring it home and shine it up. It's about reinvention. It's about rescue.
So I like when a little reinvention is necessary when I'm working on a portrait--no, I do. Especially if I believe I can get it right--especially when I find, finally, that I have gotten it right, as with this piece. Lots more flowers in the garden? I can do that! Fluffier pup? Yes, ma'am! And now Murphy and his lush front garden and his house full of kitties are on their way home.

And my life, too, is a work in progress, a hard-loved object I am constantly shining up. Honestly, I've been sloughing off dead layers for the past few years, trying to get to the core, that still-golden under layer waiting to be revealed. FB was a layer of crud for me (like broadcast TV before it, like shopping for "fun")--and it's gone! It took a long time for me to realize that a goodly portion of the noise and crowdedness in my head that had been building up was coming from FB, a place of so many voices always clamoring (many of them beloved, saying lovely things) that I was struggling again to hear my own voice, to even recognize it. I'm shooting for slow relationships with those who will still have me--handwritten letters, phone calls, yes--email. (My sister, on the phone last night, said, "I just emailed you like it's 1995.") This is going long again--I feel like I have more to say, and maybe we can have more dialogue about this issue? For now, suffice it to say I have staked out for myself a bit more silence and space, rescued a bit more brain. It's good. 

8 comments:

A Peppermint Penguin said...

hello

I've read your whole blog, I'm a big fan of your work. Stating the obvious - you are very talented!

I just had to say though. I'm really glad the doggie doesn't have a spider instead of a nose though. That was worrying me! :D

Greetings from chilly Scotland.

Cheers,
AJ

Melissa Crowe said...

Ha! It did look a little like a spider, didn't it?! Crisis averted! :-)

Glad you found me, AJ, and thanks for the kind words.

Kay - the Never Knitting Crafter said...

Interesting to hear that you are giving up Facebook! Good for you. I too have chosen to be picky about how much online presence I have, and enjoy the more contemplative activities. I actually think we are seeing more interest in handcraft BECAUSE of all the technology, and we are finding enjoyment in slower activities

Melissa Crowe said...

I agree, Kay. I think it's akin to the return to gardening/canning/raising chickens--we want to be reminded what it's like to do things in the "real" world.

Donna said...

Yesss, slowing down is good. I still have my FB account, but I hardly do anything with it. Ever since I moved abroad I find myself talking on the phone a lot and normally I hate talking on the phone! I would love it if people would write me letters. I used to have several good penpals (for decades!) but it's been hard to keep it up in the last 5 years.

Melissa Crowe said...

My experience with penpals has been that they wax and wane. I do have one, though, who is ever faithful, and it's always so nice to get her letters--and to take that 20 minutes or so to really reflect and write when I respond. Lovely.

Dr. Monica Hart said...

Love and adore the doggie and the kitties and the flowers and the house. And I miss you on FB something fierce.

Not a pressure to return, by the way, just stating the facts, ma'am.

Hugs and love--

Melissa Crowe said...

Thank you, Ms. Monica--and I miss you, too!